breakeven

a random song

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

and sometimes when i think im over it, im not really there yet
but i do know i cannot look back. so i think im fine
just the memories part of the brain working too hard

the heart and the brain are two elites.but they don't make good partners. its easy when it does not happen to you. you don't have to be experienced. or a love guru. it can be as easy as common sense. but when the heart and the brain contradicts. short circuit happens. it saddens me to see a very dear friend so heartbroken. but sometimes you don't have to say anything but to trust her and be there for her.press on my dear. communication is very impt (:

and a rare thing i learnt from my dad: theres five personality in everyone. namely the normal child. the complaning child. the caring parent. the typical parent and the adult. and how effective communication is depends on which mode the communicators are in. a normal child will be teachable but expect things to be explained explicitly. a complaining child will be on a defensive mode. and an adult will be mature enough to talk things through in a calm manner. its human to err. but to admit one's mistake is a challenge. and its best to keep an open mind

38 more questions to go

a cute guy made my day
a cute guy spoilt my day

quirkz: thank you so much for accompanying me today.though i feel quite bad for staring at my comp most of the time.hope you had fun reading your brainless but fun book (: but i do think we had quite a constructive convo today (including the one at mos.heh) i guess it is really not easy to draw the line between dependence and liking. but then again. sometimes there is no need to draw the line. because time is a factor.happy or sad. oh well. we shall hope for our textured and shaped hair clean manly guys.one for you one for me.to appear soon ya(:

just when you think you're fresh and clean..

with pleasure

im just super glad toDAY is over.the night is not though.but i shall attempt to be optimistic

everything boils down to a choice. i can be nice but i can choose not to if im not in my best mood. but then again. i can choose to not let my bad mood affect others. but you might just catch me on a bad day where i feel don't feel like putting my head to making a rational decision.

and now.as much as my head tells me to sleep and rest. i need to choose to freaking keep it awake to finish up the ASS-SAY

but i guess we just got to give and take.right boss? this is how the world works. how everything balance out. but one thing many tends to forget is to always give with pleasure. and you would have already gain something

late night filet-o-fish meal is sinful. but the way way overdue meet up with boss and the intriguing talk makes it worthwhile(:

i hope our next meet up won't have to be six months later when you get your pink i/c.heh

i always think connections are important.not to help you climb up the ladder.but it makes life much easier.sometimes even with pleasant surprises(: and because of that. i got the lacoste bag that i've been eyeing for for super long today at more than 50% off when its only suppose to be 30 % off. quirkz manage to get a steal of getting a 160 bucks bag at less than 80 bucks as well. we totally dope the auntie la! shes so super cute. she just gave us staff discount on top of all the discounts that we are already enjoying even though she wasnt really suppose to. but because she was rather flustered. her speed was faster than quirkz and i could react. she basically made the decision of buying it there and then for the indecisive us.haha.MANYMANYKISSES to you auntie <33333 now i just pray that mummy doesn't scream her head off :/ so make more friends.not enemies cos you never know. you might just need someone's help someday

i need to tan

behind time

this week's a blur week. i haven't even properly figured out what i have to do and what i've done and its already friday.the only thing i know is falling sick scrunch up at the little corner of my bed while studying for bahasa test on sunday. not knowing how and when i doze off. the next thing i knew it was already monday morning. my head is giddy from the fever and my voicebox seems to be stuck. hurting like crap when i try to stretch it. but i still manage to force myself out of bed.make a dash to school and took the test in the im-dying-hurry-and-get-this-over-and-done-with state.if i do well enough.its God's grace.Amen!

and tuesday i was gone. defeated. went to see my doctor who actually even thought of dengue fever :/ this sounds sadistic.but man for the first time. thank God i had running nose! (because you won't have running nose if its dengue) i felt really bad that i couldn't go for my last tuition though. even though i've always wanted tuitions to be over. not going for the last one make it seem like i didn't do a proper closure. like something more to being irresponsible :/ but congrats to J for finally completing his pee-ass-ale(quirkz:don't you think THIS fits here super well.heh)-eeeeee. i really really pray and hope that he does well enough

the first happy and right thing that happened in the week would be meet-up with mrdarcy.finally! finally i was able to pass her her super overdue birthday present - the OMG-HAHA bag (: really really glad she likes it. dearest you're so going to stand out in the crowd and you're the only one who can carry that off(: but the dessert at sushi tei was a little disappointing. the usually shiok mayodama and chocolat wafer were so nothing-to-be-happy-about with the soggy biscuit covering and the malaysian manager telling us the whole batch is like that in the apologetic way. we can't say anything can we?

school's still the same old school, just that a used-to-be-lawyer tutor is out to make life so drama-mama and hard for us. hello woman.not everyone loves to argue like you do alright. you have to learn to finish listening to what others have to say.and i know YOU are not the professional. but please show some professionalism and do ABIT of research before u try to tell us what to do. you're not the only one whose busy please.and omg u freaking bear personal grudges la! we have reached the state of exasperation. the stage whereby we don't feel like doing anything to her. not even kill her (HA!).she is just totally off-frequency.i seriously doubt if she gave up a high paying job to teach or was she given up. im more slanted towards the latter. okay no.i think im sure about that.i can't wait for this stupid module to be over!

oh and one thing i learn this week is never to drink when you're still sick.not even when you think you're okay.tolerance level totally drop to pit bottom .everything just comes out from where it went in.errkkkkkkkk gross :/ enough.

and im still confused if this week is week 7 or 8 :/.i need to get down to serious work.can't screw this sem up totally if not i can dig hole for myself and then bury myself. my next mission: to go AHEAD of time!go go goggles!

i need to do something about my hair

whats the name of the game

HAPPY CHILDREN"S DAY to all the young and young-at-hearts(:

i don't know why i'm feeling so empty and bored
everyone seems to be getting attached. of cos i'm happy for them. but its just so hard to meet them now.what if i die a spinster?HEH.

i'm surprisingly craving for eclipse spearmint

super trouper

yay hari raya is here
yay psle is going to be over

test today served as a ultra loud wake up call for me. really am very disappointed with myself. i know i could have done better than this. so i can't blame anyone or anything. not even the f*up argumentative essay. just got to start mugging like mugging is the only mugger word i can use in all mugger sentences

tonight
the super trouper beam are gonna blind me
but i won't feel blue
like i always do
'cause somewhere in the crowd there's you