fix our gaze

i think i'm really starting to neglect this place
pardon me cos i'm still trying to get myself organised

abit of update: YAY!PHARM RAG WON BEST CREATIVITY and BEST PRESENTATION!GRATULIERE!((:

well school has started. i'm still having the oh-man-yet-finally feeling. i'm not sure if i'm the only one feeling this, but with school starting, it kinds of put things into perspective. to put it simply,life is back to normal now.my timetable sucks though, and i'm having problems trying to wake up in the morning and making it to the lecture on time. for the record, i haven't reach school at 8am so far and i have four(freaking) days a week in which lessons starts at 8 :/ modules are what-can-i-say-ball-ring but no i don't have a choice so hang in there yanns! we even have to do effective comm which brings us back to secondary english lessons. i'm really trying very hard not to be skeptical about it

God discipline me

had a pleasant surprise today.and i'm glad it was so comfortable it didn't really feel real (:

i really should not be greedy

God give me peace at heart. for real


P.S i desperately want to watch a movie.

HAPPY BE-HEALTHY and SAVE-MONEY MONTH HOTZ!
(quirkz and smartz:ure by default involved as well)

excitement excitement(:
i'll be at singfest in a few hrs time
(its 3.51am now and i'm suppose to be up at 6.30am :/)
not as an audience but backstage crew
not really the "it" about seeing the various artistes and bands
but more of the working at such a big event
kind of a never-dream-of-it thing
and the heptagon-of-trust with tripleDEEs and tripleDOUBLEUUs is super fun and nice
so yea.i'm kind of looking forward to it(:

P.S sorry smartz and quirkz i don't think we can smuggle u girls in.my bad.i owe u girls one

on the other hand.i seriously don't understand how some people (actually only one) can be soooooo thick skin and totally overestimating himself and f***ing superficial
i can totally understand if you lack experience.and i believe everyone should have a chance to learn and grow.but oh please.take it from scratch and do it slow
why fight for all the big ass posts when u can't even deal with it properly.end up others have to clean shit for u.and the BEST part is.u don't even freaking realise it and u dare to question others' abilities and responsibilities
OH PLEASE!seriously
u need to learn how to be DOWN TO EARTH
if u don't know how to do it.open ur freaking mouth and ask.learn!don't just shove it to others to do it and make urself look damn busy
I JUST CAN'T WAIT FOR EVERYTHING TO END!

right.i better be off to bed.goodnight world!

it takes some good to make it hurt

paint it like a picture

this week has been a fulfilling week as usual

finally managed to bring renee to a few interesting places other than ulu places she lives at during her stint here and her workplace.and being like a total silly singaporean tourist

first stop: Island Cremery + Adam Food Centre

for some singapore flavours
ice cream in the flavours of local food.yummy nasi lemak, carrot cake, murtabak and bla bla.
glad she liked it.quite alot(:
realise shes act super independent and has already explored newton circus on her own
way to go renee! (i hope your poor stomach ain't protesting anymore)

hopefully her visit to little china. indiatown and the quays are fun fun fun

and thank you my darlings,namely hotz.quirky.smartz.mr policeman.bbs and auntybel, for helping to make renee's trip here more memorable

I KNOW YOU KNOW I LOVE YOUSSS!<333>

second stop: Night Festival

its the first in singapore and since i've wanted to go for it.i thought i should just bring renee along.for being lucky to be here at the right time
i would say its a good change and experience once in awhile from the shoppings in town that are getting mundane
even though i wouldn't say i totally enjoyed it because of my cranky stomach.which i amazingly survived
surprise surprise to find our dearest peranakan friend quirky at the photo gallery.the sense of familiarity is heartwarming.quirky: please make a trip to visit yourself(:
and credits to light installation.awed respect.especially the one which made national museum looked like a sketch in an instant.its picture perfect!

and the week ended well
with a question answered
to give it a good closure
no more struggles
i'm at peace
i'm ready to snap out of it(i think)
and i'm happy all over again(:

and to quote someone (i seriously cannot rmb who)
'if its meant to happen
no matter how big the round is
it will still happen'


and the picture is completed..

i miss you like you were mine
omg this is so extremely silly stupid
whatever happened to a challenge with happy ending ):

the facade

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile
When I thought that I was strong
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone

FOC is over and i should so be updating about it
but now i don't really know where to start
cos with some glitches here and there
overall it was ALL PURE FUN!(:

with SIX fantastic OGs:
morrigan
bishamonten
kartikeya
ogoun
sekhmet
minerva

the groovy and adorable mass dance

the scandalous SP interaction

freaky fright night (which left many classics)

crazy seniors vs juniors waterbombs battle

a newfound "sexy-cindy" (:

and manymanymany x291747325872 more

great memories(: which will definitely still be the topic over meals in the weeks to come
GREAT JOB all seniors! i'm not good with this but really. all who helped. in one way or another (and are reading this entry). you are greatly appreciated
i'm also really glad that many classmate-ships have deepened into real friendships.its just amazing
everything felt so worth it when good feedbacks just keep flowing in
best was "pharm camp is better than xxxxx camp"
yay-ness!

NOW its pure madness : battle
with planning for FOW
helping out with rag (now i know why factories' aunties love their jobs)
and hosting renee(my exchange student from netherlands)

i love what i'm doing
but i don't know how much longer can i hold out for
sometimes i just need support
even a single day of peace can be very comforting

its a down period
when songs bring tears effortlessly
i can't explain
i don't know how
but i will definitely snap myself out of it
maybe i'm just burning out

now all i need is sleep..

P.S mother.not to worry."rag stayover" will definitely be loads of fun(:

when its only shadow and you

if i don't write something here
i'm going to burst

*@*(#@&(*&@(#
WHY MUST YOU ALWAYS SCREW THINGS UP AND EXPECT US TO CLEAN SHIT FOR YOU?! I'M SORRY BUT WE WISHED YOU DIDN'T TOUCH ANYTHING!URGH!
*@&#!(#*&(*@(@*

took a stroll from bugis to bras basah to rafflescity
with my favourite drink
did a little shopping alone today at bras basah
the popular there has interesting treasures
which made my day
in an unexpected way (:

can anyone differentiate being free from squeezing time out because i think you are worth it?

so near yet so far.

dry-run the whole day and
meeting at 3am in the morning is
draining.

its next week.
stress
worry
EXCITED

oh God please keep me healthy
with a booming voice