so old yet so young

i've been happy this week

even with that weird feeling that is still there

i've been out and i must say all were enjoyable good times

probably except the crowd and people

if i die one day

cause of it will be comparisons and naggings

urgh

circle

i realise its not the first time i've had this feeling

but it just feels like this time its going to last longer

call me lazy call me boring and what others have you

my home seems to pull me in much stronger than all the

going-out-and-have-fun s.

maybe its part of growing up

maybe i'm just tired

not physically

not mentally too.not really

but just something that feels like its not coming through

or maybe it came through

it feels like my family is all i need

but yet i know how some people are so important to me

i envy people who keeps on meeting new people

interesting people

people who add on chapters to their life

yet i'm comfortable in my own circle

sitting at the top of the tallest building

with a revolving platform and glass window

waiting

for things to happen

for people who see me for who i am

not just the fun and outgoing girl

2009 is coming to an end

great things happened

but many are still out of place

i've been active the whole year round

or so i feel

i'm lying on the passive end now

2010 will be better

why is it so difficult to not hurt the person i least want to hurt):

twice shy

words that were said before

are so clear when you hear them

from outside the situation

you've just got to stop denying

lover is the sunshine; could get too scorching and hurting sometimes

but family is the shelter; never fails to protect you whether from the pouring rain or the roaring sun

(:

banana milk and apple.

1 paper left.

1 upcoming job with the kind of beings i love most.

1 most anticipated trip with people i never will trade for.

1 album that got my blood rushing.

makes me a whole lot happier on a normal day like this(:

i need another story

something to get off my chest

my life is kind of boring

need something that i can confess

because WAKING UP felt so awfully good

2 down

2 more to go

but ain't getting any satisfaction