i realise i don't have much that i can say here now
except boring everyone with whinings about mugging
and i hate to do so
and so i won't
not sure if its good or bad
but i do have the tendency to put on a strong front
only realising it after
but its still me
and im not complaining

just a random thought
being too rational and analytical
makes me doubt even my own sincerity at times
they seem to be weak
emotional people then make me envious
of how they can be so sure of themselves at times
and so i tell myself
to hold on to the feelings that hit me real hard
for then i will know i am truly serious about it

im in a closet now, its an open secret